Thanks suki, you are right.. no contact is what is needed. It is beyond time. I kinda felt a bit of a weight lifted, although I know he didn't mean it when he said he didn't want to talk any more (as he also added he is still wearing the commitment ring I gave him 3 years ago) it is for the best to just free fall out of this. I have been 'trapped' on this mountain for a long time, I found the path out.