Welcome. I suggest that you go to an AA meeting. At least in England and as a male and from a 'working-class' background and area I believe it would be nigh on impossible to 'accept' sobriety without regularly attending AA meetings, I tried and failed many times and caused myself a good couple of years of yo-yoing back and forward, back and forward with myself. It made my life impossible to move forward in all aspects as I always knew that that next binge was always looming and would set me back in whatever I did, so I didn't do 'anything' really, just worked and got wasted at weekends, played some gigs, started to get positive and get things moving and the BANG big binge sets you right back to square one again.
All the best anyway pal.