Step Three - I'm finally getting it.
I had a hard time with Step 3 because I couldn't figure out what "God as I understand him" was. Over the last week or so, I'm figuring it out for me.
I finally figured out that for me, He is not some faceless being in the heavens keeping score of my life. I don't have to speak in hushed tones and drop to my knees in his presence. He is my best friend. He's not always serious and everything we talk about doesn't have to be earth shaking. He knows everything about me - everything I've done and haven't done - and He understands and loves me anyway. He is with me every minute of every day. He can even say something funny and make me laugh when I need it. He can say "Let's take a walk." when He knows I need a walk. He will listen and understand when there is no one else to talk to and no one else would understand. It's hard to explain but I can't imagine feeling all alone anymore. No matter what happens, I'll always have my best friend.
Maybe everyone else in the world has always known all of that. But, for me, it is a miracle. Just wanted to share because today I am GREAT and GRATEFUL.
Thanks to all for all your help -
L