Originally Posted by Piglet123

Forgive me for jumping in as a non-alcoholic, wife of a prescription drug abuser, with a medical background (just thought I'd state my position from the start).

I know many people disagree with this as an "excuse" or explanation for alcoholism, but to me, it reads clearly as if your alcohol abuse is above all an attempt to self-medicate a significant psychiatric problem.

Librium- a benzodiazepine, yes? Primarily for anxiety symptoms.

What you have described sounds far more consistent with life-threatening depression. Have you ever been prescribed an antidepressant?



You have already demonstrated your ability to STOP drinking (albeit for limited periods)- but if abstinence unmasks an overwhelming depression, it is hardly surprising you respond by drinking again. I would do the same. And there's no reason to expect you to do any different next time, unless you concurrently address your psychiatric issues.

I have no idea about the state of mental health services in your area, but I implore you to prioritize finding a psychiatrist who is experienced with dual diagnosis patients. Librium and alcohol isn't the answer.

As to how you will earn a crust and fill your days when you are a non-drinker, I would suggest that your skill with words holds the answer.

All the best.