Well, today feels like a better day. I still want to cry, but I came here first! So, knowing there are so many of us that have been lied to and hurt and apparently manipulated into thinking this is our fault I am wondering how the alcoholic even thinks that this is justified.
As for my ABF, I have been listening to him talk.....I figure at least he is talking now......and I realize that I always knew there was something I was missing back over the years, now I truly believe that this man has other mental issues.......
I am going to get myself together one day, I have to there is no choice. I am in so much pain because all I can see is the past and the love we shared and I want it back.
ok, I will be back...if I keep writing right now I will start crying again.....I will do some housework.....