Okay, I know I am not all powerful.....I am pretty sure that I would have written my life-script differently.
As to the HP question, I really, truly believe it is unknowable; and that is the true definition of an agnostic.
For me, it would take one hell of alot of hubris to say that I know.
I mean, for real, geometry proofs make me want to run and hide.
I am working with a limited mind.
But, I can imagine being on a yacht in the Riviera right now.
And my emotions do register beauty and awe, etc.
As well, as disgust and anger....my point being that emotions are naturally wired in and responsive.
The good and great ones do feel better and more inspiring.
When I was 3 years old...why, why, why this, why that?
Now I am okay with knowing that I just don't know very much of any of that, never will.
If I can handle my behavior in a sane, helpful, compassionate manner for the next hour...I am doing pretty well.
It's enough to keep me busy and ....often confused.