But now I find the negative vibes at meetings are dragging me down.
That is not a description of the meetings I go to.
I know what you mean about the disease thing... I don't totally buy into it, but I don't really worry too much about it... I think that it's not will power, but willingness. Willingness to change, to find the way to happiness without drinking. That path may be marked by 12 steps, or not.
We also talk a lot about gratitude at my home group.
I'm glad you are doing well with your sobriety! Maybe, you got a little burned out with AA... 120 in 90, wow!
Let us know what you think about SmartRing vs. AA.
Mark