I've noticed that whatever is wrong with me has been getting worse. Pretty soon I'll be too far gone to care.
then, with all due respect to other viewpoints, you need to find a better therapist and different meds, Bam.
I like you - I think you're a great person - but I can't tell you how to love or like yourself, or not feel awkward - but I know that giving up gives you zero chance of ever finding out how.
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