Welcome Tears!
Glad you are here and exploring getting help. It is great that you are acknowledge that you have a problem and would like to do something about it. I didn't admit that I had a problem until much later in life. Please stick around and continue to post. I found this site after I already was sober for a good while but I am so impressed at how powerful a sobriety tool SR is. Chat is a great location to get help here and there are many from the UK that visit to talk there.
Take care!