P.s....
I like the way that bit of lack of self worth came in there....
Your post started with...
were both at fault..... then
Alot of its my problem.... then
I am mostly to blame.... then to hey presto
ITS ALL ME!!!!!
There are two sides to every story and as i said here before to you... from what i have seen in your posts to others... you seem a kind and sincere person...
Please dont be so hard on yourself :o)