Well, one thing you can do is vent here. That seems to help a lot of people. Another thing I would suggest is collecting a lot of phone numbers at the meetings you attend. Calling each other something that helps us a lot. It would allow you to talk to someone who's either going through or has been through what you're going through. It's great support, and you seem as if you need some support right now. And cool it with the roomate. You need each other right now, like it or not.