I am not fully convinced it is a disease to be honest. I do agree it is a mental issue. But I am not too sure how I feel about the whole disease thing.
But I know from my own experience that alot of times..I purposely wont tell on myself so I can get high. Thats stems from wanting to. Other times. I wont tell because I feel like a burden.
And when I do tell. I will go anyway. Or sometimes it does throw a wrench in it.
For me it just comes down to if I really want to go or not.
Because either way. I am goin to do it if thats what I really want. I can go through all the motions as if I am trying not to. but it isnt goin to do any good if my inicial intention isnt the same.
Did that make any sense?