Hi Matt, sorry about the "stone and Dee" storm in a teacup, we always do it, I am sorry it was in your thread.
For the record, I like Dee, we just seem to rub each other the wrong way sometimes.
I know what you mean about not living your life, I say again, it takes bravery to look at ourselves in such an honest way without running to old behaviours....it isn't noble though, absolutely not!
Anyway, you sound like you are feeling a bit better and I am glad.