I think the suspicions and doubts creep in when someone changes their behavior......
That is natural for you to think something just isnt right. It probably isnt. I was usually right on when it came to that type of "gut" feeling. I could only go by his behaviors with or without drug use.
Today his behavior is different then it was when he was actively using. Its SMALL changes but changes none the less AND in the right direction. I lowered my expectations of what I thought HE should be doing. So that when things happened (relapse) I wasnt surprised his actions spoke of a relapse long before he got back on the pills.
Now his actions are speaking a different language. It hasnt been long and like I said they are small changes but NOW I REALLY UNDERSTAND THAT YOU NEED TO WATCH THEIR ACTIONS. More then ANYTHING else.