Originally Posted by
AcceptingChange 
If you convince yourself that you need to keep drinking to keep your job or keep your husband happy, you're just adding more and more layers of confusion to the problem. Where will you be in a year? The same place.
Absolutely! Please take a step back and start asking yourself some serious questions. Is this really the kind of life that you want to have for yourself? Do you really want to rapidly grow old with your husband like this? There are solutions that are out there for EVERYONE. I would seek out meetings and/or therapy to start putting a new step forward to a healthier and more fullfilling way of life.
Yes, it will be hard. It always is - but it is so worth it! Good luck to you and your husband. Keep coming back.