Originally Posted by
fighttowin 
here i sit, had a few or more then a few and wonder ....why. i do want to stop but it just seems like I can't. when I do stop I feel so run down can't deal with my staff at work things seem to be so wrong and I get such a belly ache(can't go to the bathroom
I know just what you mean. The first few weeks, you walk around in a murky haze. And it seems that you just need one drink, one lil bit of alcohol, and you'll be back to your young, happy, energetic, commanding self.
But that's just a lie we tell ourselves. The next drink will push you down further, not raise you up higher.
But you have to spend a bit of time walking in the pain of recovery, accepting the rain when you want sunshine. The sunshine will come. But you have to stop the behavior that keeps you under the clouds.
If you convince yourself that you need to keep drinking to keep your job or keep your husband happy, you're just adding more and more layers of confusion to the problem. Where will you be in a year? The same place.
Today is the day to make a committment to your health and future happiness.
You can do it. Just don't run from the short term discomfort.