What's the point?
I'm getting no real enjoyment in life. What the f*ck am I supposed to do? I care.....but don't care. I feel like sh!t. This is exactly why I drank all the time.
Therapy isn't helping.
Medicines are not helping.
Nothing works.
The pain never goes away.
I cannot live like this any more.
I don't know what to do.
How can I make these feelings go away?
I've done everything I was supposed to do. Result.........FAIL.
Don't be surprised when I go back to drinking in a few weeks. As soon as I can get off these meds I'll do the one thing that always helped. When that happens, I'll hang it up here. I'm telling you folks this now so you don't wonder what happened to me.