(((Tanya)))
I am going through something similar, right now. Although I can see where it is a concern, that you are thinking about the neurontin and looking forward to it, the very fact that you are aware of this, and telling on yourself is a good thing.
The meds I am taking are for PTSD from the robbery at work. It angers me that I can't just "get over it" but I can't. I know some people can use their recovery tools to get through anything, but apparently I'm not one of those people.
My recovery is strong; I have a very close relationship with my HP; heck I even quit smoking! Despite all this I am still having physical reactions to stress that I can't live with and I require medication. And yes, I do have an appt. with a counselor next week.
I understand how you feel...we bust our butts to get away from any kind of drugs, only to find out we need a drug to "fix" us? WTF? All I know is we've faced a few challenges in recovery, and gotten through them, and we'll get through this one, too.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy