a shrink told me once that there is a psychoactive medication for everyone who needs it, it is just about finding the right one. It is complicated for people like us who are prone to abusing substances. i am prescribed benzos and amphetamines and the only way i can take them is by having them given to me each day so that i dont have access to the entire bottle of pills. it is working for me, that is something you might think about doing if you have a friend/loved one willing to do it for you.