Truth is, I need no excuse to drink. It's a coping strategy I have employed to deal with things I don't want to deal with. I have a tendency to not say what I am feeling in the minute, let it stew over days and then drink. Not good.
And I bet I am not alone in this. I venture to guess that a lot of people like me don't want to fight, don't do conflict well and drink because of this.
You're not alone K - add a little boredom and a lot of self hatred into the mix and you have my drinking career encapsulated there. Like Nands said
ultimately i drink over me...somehow thats what it comes back to in a tangled way.
I actually thought that said 'targeted way' cos that's what it was like for me.
You may have noticed I no longer have much trouble telling people what I think LOL
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Truth is I still hate conflict - it makes my blood run cold - but I realise now sometimes it's a necessary part of life to get things done or not be trampled on...and it's better than drinking
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