Originally Posted by
chiynita 
I am so use to enhancing relaxation time that I dont really know how to do it clean.
I do but it just seems more rewarding if your altering your mind. Does that make sense?
Absolutely makes sense!!! However, as we know.. it will kill us. It's easy to say there's lots of non drug/alcohol ways to alter your mind or experience a "high", but really.. it's not the same. All I can ever think when I feel that urge, is that it will indeed destroy my life. Maybe not today, maybe not in a week, but it will.
I'm glad you tell on yourself
Hugs to you, Trish!!!!