Trish for me even the thought to use again IS NOT AN OPTION. I keep remembering my last day using and how my life had become so unmanageable. You did good by not going back there. I know not everyone is like me but believe me I don't want to go back to anything like it was before. I see too many who cave in to their disease and don't make it back. You have so much to offer me and others and I thank you for your friendship. I am happy today (not all days) I don't wake up each day wishing it was the end of my life like I use to.