Don't ever apologize for eaching out Trish. Its better then going through with these thoughts. You will get past these thoughts. I believe you will.
Stress used to make me want to drink, but lately that's changed. Don't know why and don't care, but it has changed and for that I'm grateful. Just keep doing what you're doing and reaching out and telling on yourself so to speak.
Finding an outlet helps. Bored and what can you do to divert the boredom? Do you go to the movies? You've got the money to. I love and miss going to the movies. My next movie is that Part 2 to the Night at the Museum and maybe, if I'm lucky, Harry Potter. Huge fan of both movies. Will take son to Night, but not Potter.
It will pass Trish. Find something to do with your time off. That may help you. PM me whenever this week. I'm home, as you might know. Hugs and thanks for being there for me.