have no interest in forming another relationship, don't feel needy at all. 
the 9.9 is there, just in case a nice giver, would come along.
I'm grateful, for my 4 years, after the mess. Back then, it felt a long way off, to get here.
I do what I like along the way. Always like spring, grow a few herbs in a window box planter on my ledge. The spring green color of the leaves, wildflower colors & scents, the birds chirping,
sweet silence.