Hi Stillwaters, just offering some ((hugs)), remember people close to you are around to help you in times of distress and I am sure if the tables were turned, you would be happy to help them out yourself.
I recall when I was unemployed for 8 months, it was stressful and difficult to keep the hopes up, but you can do it! Or perhaps try something that is not your area (like waitress or something?) to make ends meet while you find something more appealing to you?
I have also gone without eating for days, and now I am better so I know that even in the most desperate situation things just start to fall into place little by little.
I will be thinking of you ((hugs))