Helluvacook do not worry, what you are going through right now is pretty standard in early sobriety, feelings and emotions are all over the place, up and down like a rolloer coaster ride, as time passes (Not 2 or 3 weeks) things start to smooth out, the more I worked on changing me and cleaning up my side of the street the smoother that roller coaster ride gets.
I am a Director of Nursing at a large organization and I can't risk the scrutiny right now.
I had to chuckle a bit when I read that, I know for a fact that there are HUGE numbers of doctors, nurses and other health care professionals in AA, I know for a fact there is an AA group named Agape at a huge medical center, here is the link
Sheppard Pratt Health System-FAQ The Agpe AA group meets 3 times a day every day in 2 different rooms in a building right on the medical center.
One of my daughters went through rehab there for anorexia, I stayed up there for 3 weeks and attended a ton of AA meetings, there were doctors, nurse, therapist, department heads all in attendance.
Alcoholism knows no class, no age group, nor race. I attend AA meetings with politicians, lawyers, business owners, a minister, government workers with Top Secret clearances, I also know one person in AA that is in church of one of the largest nursing institutions in the US.
I look at it this way, which would I feel better about some one saying behind my back:
"Did you hear that Martin is a recovering alcoholic who attends AA meetings"
OR
"You know I heard that Martin is a drunk when he is not at work?"
I know what I have chosen and I do not have a single regret about it, as a matter of fact I have people come to me for help for an alcoholic friend, people look up to me for overcoming my alcoholism.
I was at one time known as a drunk behind my back, I did not find that out until I had been sober over a year!