Wow its like listening to my own story. Actually its funny you should mention feelings because after 6 days sober, I am starting to dream about the one person I let go and whom I now believe is my only love. She is gone now and never coming back, but the feelings that have been masked my drinking are emerging now and its really hard to face. Thank god for these forums and for supportive people in my life. From one wine drinker to another, good luck. We're in this together.