Trish, I really feel ya. I wish I could share what is going on in my life with you all but I have an X husband who lurks here so I have to keep that to myself at least here on the boards.
I can relate to all that you are going through, different stuff, but none the less, I just wish I could let it go but can't. I have to keep working on it every day and just keep the faith, keep cheerleading myself, reach out to those around me and let them know where my head is at and look to the future.
I know that others before us really had some struggles in the beginning as well and here we are!!
When I look back though, it's still better today. I am grateful for so much and while I'm totally stressed to the max I have to have hope that this time next year things will be much better.
Hang in there Girl!!! I know it's a hard mountain to climb but I know we'll get there. :ghug3