I remember sharing my Step 5 with my sponsor and how ashamed and foolish I felt at the time. I couldn't believe the things I had done, all in the name of love for my addicted son. It was as if another person had done it all, because it was so out of character for me, thus indicating the insanity of codependency.
She let me share it all, and then she said to me "What you have done, you did thinking it was helping, when in fact what it was doing was destroying you. You don't have to do that anymore, that's where recovery will help restore you to sanity."
Phewww, what a relief to know that I would be okay...because if my sponsor SAID I would be okay, you better believe it.
Hugs