It's the quality of recovery as well as the quantity, I'll agree with you there.
I just hope that you weren't doing this in order to prove something to others as well as yourself. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but that's what I'm reading here. I know about the troubles with the chat room and am wondering if this may have been an attempt to take back some control of the situation.
I just hope for your sake that now you can put this behind you and it's a one off episode which doesn't become a pattern, which you know is just likely to escalate. You're the one who will hurt from that.