Hi Paulos. I am glad your relapse reminded you of why you aren't drinking anymore. I think that happens with some, but more times then not I see a huge struggle from those that have relapsed and fight and fight to regain the "control" once again. I feel if I was to pick up a drink again I would be doing a dance with the devil so to speak. Almost like daring the old life to make another grand entrance and I tell you that would scare the living crud out of me. I can't go back to that life and so therefore I am content on being sober and re-reading my posts to remind me of where I once was. I do count days when they get to a certain anniversary and you can bet each year I'm still sober I will recognize it one way or the other. It beats the alternative for me.
I am glad you weren't tempted to remain in the relapse and that you are back to being sober again. I also am glad you took the time to post this thread. It has been very interesting to read your point of view on this.