Thanks everyone
I am in the process of trying to accept these uncomfortable cravings/feelings/thoughts. However, they are so strong they often trample the positive progress I have made.
My personality desires instant gratification, so of course, I thought I would be well on my way to forgetting about alcohol all together by now. That's frustrating and humbling at the same time.
I hear this term "dry drunk" sometimes at aa. I am not exactly sure what it means, but I am starting to guess it's similar to my current emotions. I am a 12 day dry drunk I guess
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One more thing, I don't have an aa sponsor yet. Should I have one by now? Honestly, I never thought I would still be going to aa because I have MAJOR hang-ups with the God/Higher Power concept is so vital to the program. Due to my hesitant stance, I have avoided getting a sponsor (despite several members strongly encouraging me to do so).