Ahhhh the growing pains in recovery. I use to
think 30 was too young to be in AA especially
when id sit in meetings surrounded by older
men and women.
As time went on and the more meetings i
went to i eventually began to feel a part
of the fellowship and that age didnt matter.
It's good that u come here to share ur
thoughts and feelings because now u
know that ur not alone.
Im very grateful that the desire to drink
was lifted from me from the very beginning.
Going to rehab back in 1990 and picking
up the tools and knowledge of my disease
helped me learn to live one day at a time
with the 12 steps and principles set down
before us in AA.
I learned that alcohol was poison to me and
as it did try to kill me then, it would surely
get me again if i drink.
It's not an option for me to drink. I tried so
many times to control my drinking and it always
failed. I dont have to think about what if
one day i can drink sucessfully. Or maybe
one day i will.....
Cause it aint gonna happen.
To drink today, tomorrow, 10 yrs from now,
ill surely die.
I live on a one day at a time schedule and
have been for some 18 yrs. Its a matter
of living the steps in my everyday affairs.
Before u know it it becomes a part of u.
No friends, loner, isolater.....i am happy today.
Newly married, no fuss no muss.....I enjoy
the beauty of my life with clearer vision. No
fog, no hanngover, no worry.
I rode on a motorcycle maybe once in the
past and little did i know how much i would
really enjoy the freedom of riding. Well, learning
to ride solo....right now im just a passanger.
At 50 im in a new chapter of my life. Happier
than i ever been all because i live the steps
in my life and i share my experiences, strengths
and hopes with others.
That my friend is my soul purpose in life today.
I cant keep my sobriety if i dont give what was
so freely passed on to me over the yrs.
It's what u call being responsible.
I Am Responsible. And that is why I am where
I am today living happy joyous and free
from alcohol.