Welcome Lifequest! I'm glad you joined our family. You'll find a lot of support and good advice here from people who understand what you're going thru. It IS possible to stay sober, just stay sober one day at a time. Just don't drink today and repeat when tomorrow becomes today again.
I started my recovery with AA but now use only this site and my weekly sessions with an addiction counselor. Is addiction counseling available where you are? There are other support programs out there besides AA.
Again, welcome!