Hi Relief,
I had reservations galore about AA in general and especially on the higher power concept having anything to do at all with my drinking problem. I finally had enough with my drinking and was willing to do anything to be done with alcohol. So I quit trying to figure it out, got a Sponsor and worked the steps and found out that the process really does work. I just have no need to drink today under any circumstances, good day, rotten day, whatever, my mind no longer thinks I need to drink. It is so wonderful to be done. You can get there also!
The emotional ups and downs are very common in early sobriety by the way. Hang in there it takes a while longer for the heavy duty physical WD stuff to run its course.
Congrats on staying sober!! It does get a lot easier.
