How are you doing today paperboy? I have read your post, and all of the replys. Everyone seems to have good advice. One thing that I learned in Naranon, is to do something good for someone, without letting anyone know you did it. That's healthy for you. But, I did learn from many in NA, that in the very beginning of recovery, to work on your sobriety first, and to make yourself healthy and well. Once your there, you can then begin to make amends to the ones you have hurt. Easy does it, one step at a time. You have to crawl before you can walk. So, take it easy. Everything will be alright, as long as you don't get high.