I'm writing again - you're post really touches me.
I woke up this morning feeling like scum and a failure. I asked myself what I could do about it. My exhusband and my three eldest sons look at me with disgust.
If I don't DO something about this, then my youngest son will grow up and treat me the same way. Sobriety hurts, huh?
Writing is what I can do best. Talking doesn't seem to have done much, as they forget easily. If I write, it is down there in black and white, and you can pour out your innermost sentiments. Maybe that could work for you too.
I also thought that the 12 steps were easy peasy, but they're not. I'm back on step one,
and I'm not clean yet, as I still take subutex.
I'm lucky, I have a brand new life ahead of me, if I play it right. So do you. Sobriety is a
new way of life for you. That's exciting. I treasure every darn thing in this life, right down to the pillow in my bed. Let the tears out, there is peace after the storm, especially if you make amends to YOURSELF.
Right, I shall now go and sit down at my desk and write.
Have a peaceful day. PM if you want.
Tish xxx