Thankyou to ALL of you... I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner but I've been on the phone all morning since 7am, trying to deal with the aftermath of my stupidity.
I AM going to be attending AA to aid my recovery.
I've already located one near to where I live but I just got an answering machine, so I'll ring later.
For now I have to go back to basics, food and sleep are what is next.
Thankyou for your responses, right now they mean the world to me, and make me feel far less alone than I did yesterday.
Thankyou