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My last post was totally rediculous, clouded by selfish judgement and my lack to accept responsibility for myself.
Apologies for that- truly.

I got a DUI two nights ago, and am reaping the repocussions as we speak.
It is likely that I will not have a liscence for a year, and I fully accept that and all the fees and fines, as punishment for my utter stupidity.

I have decided that enough is enough...
I have tried to give up drinking before, and failed, due to lack of control and temptation. (and selfishness)
This time I am going to kick booze for life.
I don't expect anyone to believe me at all, but I would say that any support, good or bad from you guys would be like gold dust for me right now.
I haven't slept or eaten in 2 days, yet I don't feel tired or hungry...

Thankfully no one was hurt in the incident, which I can be thankful for.
I'm sorry for my ignorance of late, and hope that I can still feel welcome here, even after the catastrophic stupidity of myself lately.
I have been an emotional wreck since saturday, I litterally can't cry anymore, and feel so utterly alone right now.

I can be thankful that this is Day 2.

Thankfully too, my partner is offering her full support, as are my parents, which I am eternally grateful for.
I want to quit drinking and by god I'm going to do it this time.

Thankyou for being here you guys...

I'm sorry... please help...