I had to work on the things going on in my head which kept me searching for something chemical to make "feel" different. I took the chemicals away and I was left with "me". OOWEE. So, I had to look inside myself, searching (with help) for the things which kept me thinking, rationalizing, justifying, and deceiving myself into "this stuff is okay" or "I really don't have a problem with this".... I had to realize I am okay living inside my own skin without chemicals....Recovery has brought me this gift..... Don't give up and keep trying.... We are all here for you DK........
