sometimes you just gotta go with a 'fake it till you make it' attitude. You're putting alot of hard work into this jimba - even if you cannot muster up the 'motivation' to go - make like nike and JUST DO IT! Going to an AA/NA meeting is simple - you're at your computer anyway so look up meeting times and just go to one. Don't even have to say anything, just GO! Don't think - just do....It's better than sitting around waiting to see if you're going to feel any better 5 min from now. Better to spend your time productively! You're really reaching out for inspiration right now, and I think a meeting in itself would be the 'motivation' you're looking for - ya know?