I am sending you big (((hugs & support))) when I seen the heading my heart dropped, the first thought was OMG her son is using again. I was so relieved when I seen he wasn't. I wish I could tell you what to do, I know how much you love your son. Maybe you could tell him to go out and do it on his own for a period of time and then he can come home, he needs to rebuild that trust with you and if he can do it for a period of time proving he will stay clean then you can let him come home. You have been so helpful to myself and so many others on SR it hurts to hear you in so much pain. Try to focus on the happiness your feeling because he is clean. It is true our hearts always hurt for our children, but you have to do what is right for you first. I will be praying for you and all our hurting SR mothers. Julie