I've lived in fear plenty during my lifetime. Sometimes it's been so bad that I've bordered on being agoraphobic.
The part of ourselves that clings to the past with its traumas and hurts, and projects into the future with unknown demons lurking keeps us bound in fearful agony.
You are working on getting healthy, Bam. You took action to see a medical doctor and a therapist. You are taking medication to help with this. It's hard to make changes, and almost easier to stay with the fear.
It helps me if I just breathe and stay focused on what's happening right now.
Have a good hour with your therapist. She won't drop you, and you've always got support from SR.
Thinking of you...
and a big hug,
Donna