Thanks guys.
I've took some advice from here, had myself a bath and took the dog for a walk.
I took him to Himley Hall park grounds. The house is where Edward viii wrote his abdication speech and only five minutes from my house. Nice sunny evening too, it is a beautiful park. Haven't been there for a while, sometimes us Brits take our history and especially our historical houses for granted.
Anyway it got me thinking about the serenity prayer, i don't say it but i do agree with the words, to accept the things you cannot change.
I am going to go to a meeting too, haven't been in a couple of months. Still feel a bit down but better than when i wrote the thread.
Thank you
Paul