I don't know about "pill" w/d.... but I'm here to offer you love and support through a horrific time of losing what "we thought" to be our 1st love! For me, alcohol has been that love for me and yet my worst enemy at the same time. Don't give up.... Don't give in and connect with those who truly care for you! You are sooooo very important! I can't stress that enough!!!! Love 2 U!!!!