I'm so glad you came to this site. I've found it so helpful and everyone is so supportive
I also have a serious addiction to all pain pills. And methadone ended up being the only thing that would do the trick anymore. And I got up to 15-20 10mg pills a day. I don't know how I lived through that. I had to wean myself down, and it took a while. And Iknow those withdrawls feel like they'll never end while you are going through it. But they will.
You are strong and you can do this. But don't do it alone, I suggest with all my heart to get into NA or AA. These meetings have saved my life. Get a sponsor and a support group. Some advice I'd like to share that someone shared with me recently: Persue your recovery as strongly as you did your addiction. Work as hard on your sobriety as you did on getting high. You're on the right path.
Keep up the hard work, its so worth it...
