Irrational fear of losing my mom
I have this irrational panick-y feeling about losing my mom. She had breast cancer twice, 14 years ago and 5 years ago. She was and has been fine. However,she is going for a bone scan and her 6 month blood work and I am terrified. I get terrified every 6 months. I start panicking 1-2 weeks before her tests. I don't know why.
I am not scared about losing my dad in the same way. and I don't get scared of other family members dying, but something feels off about how scared I am about losing my mom - it feels somehow codependent, like I wouldn't be able to survive the loss.
Does anyone else have these kinds of issues or any insights/thoughts?
You all have such a wealth of experience and wisdom.