I was one of 4 kids too, me the second oldest.
The only one to be physically, verbally and
emotionally abused.
My mom was a Dr. Jeckel/ Mr. Hyde personality.
An Attractive lady who worked behind the
cosmetic counter and who'd a thought
she drank and took prescription drugs
and was a ticking time bomb, exploding
when least expected.
Man i would have given anything to have
had the technolgy thats available today
back then....What was a computer....
what was AA.
My mom put fear in me from the day i
was born.....i was so full of fear that i
dared not tell anyone what she did to
me till i was 18 yrs old when she raised
her hand to me the last time.
I am an alcoholic and thru family intervention
my husband and in laws stepped in to
send me to rehab getting me help when i
couldnt do it myself.
For them i am grateful.
In my 25 yr marriage, 7 of those yrs was
during my drinking career and the rest in
recovery. Both of my kids who r now
22 and 24 grew up as awesome kids.
I am extremely grateful to not have abused
my own kids like i was.....only because
I had faith in my HP to care for His 2 kids
while they were in my care.
I have kept my distance FAR away from
my family....parents and siblings most all
my adult life. They know of my recovery
however the dysfunction of that family
is not healthy for me.
As much as ive always wanted a relationship
with my mom, it never will be. In her own
sick way still today i have no place in her
life and hers in mine.
She took my dad away from me out of
selfish reasons so i have no relationship
with him either sad to say.
Anyway....i commend u for reaching
out for help and taking care of you.
I feel just as proud of u as i do for
my own kids.
Thanks for letting me share.