I quit for a lot of reasons. I was depressed. I could see that I was alienating my family. I was embarrassed by my addiction, I felt like a loser. Mostly though I was ready to deal with the stuff I had been running from. I knew if I could 'get over it' I would have a better life, but I had to stop drinking and using. I guess I still haven't dealt with all that stuff, I need to get past my addiction first, make sure my brain is in condition to take care of the rest of it.