Bard, I agree with you on this. In the first couple months I was so thankful to be sober, so terrified about my last binge, that the thought of drinking just made me sick. When I started to feel healthier, the old way of thinking returned. I started thinking, "I'd never overdo it again, not after what I've been through - I'll just have a few." Then I'd remind myself that I was never able to hold it down to just a few and it always resulted in another binge of terrifying proportions. Next time I might not make it back. Thanks for sharing these helpful thoughts.